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Gift of God

Gift of God – Both Blessings and Curses are the gift of god only.

Do we need to have a reason for loving? Only a life lived for other’s is worth living. A life for self is ruining us.

I say what I can do and do what I used to say. There’s no in between. People will either love you or hate you . The greatest healing therapy is love and friendship.

When I say that love and emotions with you is divine to me, and I can’t expect you to feel in the same way. If you would not have shown your love also, it would have been in the same way. I feel that it would have been the most precious if you would not have shared it with me. I got that special feeling for you even before we started sharing the love.

I believe the world is one big family, and we need to help each other. My Motto of life is not having my relationship within one small family. I love everyone around me, but very few come to the inner circle. My feelings for my friend and a stranger will be same, whereas my feelings for the inner circle will be far more than my family.

I used to pray for others even for strangers and my enemies (Even though I don’t consider anyone as my enemy but still those who consider me as their enemy). I don’t believe in the selfish prayers. I do ask something for self, like I will ask the god to give me strong shoulders to accept the challenges and I never asked for a relief.  I know that god will give me a strong shoulder to face the challenges. He is the one giving me the problem and he is the one who can help me to cross it.

My Love for you started unknowingly. I never felt something special as I have it for you now.I felt that something is missing in your eyes. You always keep smiling, but in that smile, there is a deep longing. You can say you don’t have but that was the real feeling what I felt about you.

I didn’t know that you are married also and I came to know through others. I never thought it also because one by look you are young and your face doesn’t say so. May be if I would have started praying on my own, I would have prayed give her the best what she deserves or I would have prayed to god that whatever is required for her to smile from heart, please give it. You entered my prayers may be in the month of December or early Jan-12.(I guess it was during some UAT Sessions)

It is my usual nature that I will pray when someone needs something, which can’t be dealt by me. If it is a word of comfort, or to spend my precious time to heal them or to help them monetarily or to support them mentally, I can do it and I thank god for giving me that opportunity to do it for them.

Rest all other things, I will ask only to god. I believe that god is acting through me to support them, encourage them and to comfort them. Only very few will have those golden blessings to give comfort to others.

When I pray for me, only thing I will ask god is be with me all the day and do whatever you want me to do and guide me in all the phases. Same way in my prayers also, he is the one who wants me to pray for others. I don’t ask for anyone wants and my prayers are only for the needy.

Same way only you entered my room of prayers and even I can’t believe that the way you entered my prayers were as unique as like your name.

Sometimes our 7th sense will say something and it happened like a miracle for me while I was praying. All my prayers were without any bargains with god.

I will not say that I will do this if you give this to them or do that for them, but when I started praying just a fraction of second, something made me to say, I will not think anything about self or I will not think about anything in my life, I will give up all the worldly things.

Please give her all the happiness of the world. Please give her what she needs and make her happy were the prayers and I don’t know how it came from my heart.

After my prayers, I was in deep tension and dilemma how I could pray like this for a stranger because I was having someone in my mind and she was a stranger only because I know her just by face. I am sure that I can’t pray on my own. God wanted me to give up everything, may be that’s why he used her as a medium to guide me.

I used to pray for those who are with pain or deep hurt or ill health. When I started praying you entered my life as a stranger only. I never thought that you will give such an impact in my life.

When we pray for others, god listens, that is what is my feeling and I will not get disturbed when I pray for others. But with this girl, who entered my prayers room only few day and for the first time I was praying for her and how I got that kind of attachment or what it is? I don’t have any clue of my prayer and I was literally disturbed after praying for this girl, because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments.  God wanted some detachment and a different attachment as well.

But still I said thanks to god, and I said it is something you have given it and I will keep it as precious gift from you and you want me to have this attachment as well as detachment from worldly things. This is also a different kind of love.

I am sure that I can’t pray for someone on my own and god wanted me to pray for her. I can’t do it without the blessings from god. I have a big friends circle and an affectionate family circle. I don’t pray for everyone individually. I just include all of them in one word as friends and family.

It was just a fraction of second came during my prayers, but it really touched me a lot and I said, if it is your will, I will abide it. Already I don’t ask anything to you and I always take your guidance and follow it. If you wish that I have to let go all my worldly desires, am ready to give up.

Whatever I asked is not on my own without your (god) guidance, I can’t let these kind of words to come out of my mouth also for someone sake, when it is during my prayer, it is from heart and I have to abide the words and I take this as a blessings from you because you are the one who is guiding me all the time.

Neither I had any love for you nor have I seen your love at that point of time. God asked me to love you and my love started for you with my prayers. How can that 7th sense ask me to give up everything for girl whom I don’t know or anything about her? I know only her name and I don’t know anything else.  I considered you as god’s gift to me.

It is definitely a blessing from god. I started my prayer by saying to my girl and I never wished to take someone in my prayers as personal prayer. God knows that whatever I ask for her is like a personal need.

I don’t know what kind of love is it at that point of time. Whether it is a love between friends, mother and daughter, or between two strangers?  That’s why we say Love is blind and I feel that it is a Gift from God. I don’t want this to be shared publicly because my feeling for you is from heaven, but you thought it differently.

When I started praying regularly for her, I will have a bright smile when I say her name, and I will say to god, please make her to smile in the same way I am smiling now with your blessings, because I know what she means to me and I want her to feel the same blessings from you and to see her smile.

It would have been a blessing if you would not have become so close to me. I don’t know why god wanted you to show your love to me, because I never expected it or want to experience it as well.

When I got the love from you, I felt like god wanted me to feel what I felt as a blessing as a curse.  but you proved everything as wrong and what all words I listened from you. I really feel that I don’t deserve to hear all those for showing my love.

Loving you is a blessing, Sharing it with you is a pain, accepting your love is a curse.

To be Continued…………

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Misunderstanding

You meet people who forget you.  You forget people you meet.  But sometimes you meet those people you can’t forget. Those are your friends.

Friendship is perhaps one of the most beautiful relat­ion that two people can feel and share. Friendship is about sharing opinions, dreams, fears and feelings, aspirations & ambitions, desires and hopes.

Friendship is about cherishing the old memories of togetherness of old friends with the new ones and creating a new relationship. Friendship is about enchanting conversations, which go on and on and make you lose track of time. When you watch friends hanging out and having a great time, it seems as if they just belong together. However, maintaining a friendship is not always blushing. It requires a sound mutual understanding with lots and lots of love and care for each other.

Friendship isn’t about whom you have known the longest.  It’s about who came, and never left your side.

Genuine friends must be cherished and not abandoned

Sometimes the smallest understanding can turn into a major excitement and can develop a great relationship. It really hurts very much when there is a misunderstanding between any relations and when it is between our friends, it takes us to change a lot. It hurts when two close people change by small misunderstanding.

If they are your true friends they would try to sort it out with you. You ask your friend how you have upset them, or what is wrong. At least they will try to find out the reason and try to correct the mistake or can try to explain them about their situation and the reason for the misunderstanding. Both of them will try to sort it out, if there is real love between them.

Sometimes EGO or the immaturity are the stupidest things that spoil the relationship or creates wreckage in the relationship.

I know it does hurt when the other person doesn’t try to understand the intense of the problem or not trying to sort it out.  If one tries and the tries to pull out, then the one who tries not to give up the relationship will try to move on without the relationship because there is no other option other than giving up. Always try to sort it out with your friends/relations. I hope you talk it out with your friend. Let your friend know that you are sorry and you want to correct things with her or him.

Immaturity of the one person or feeling the friendship as immature or the person might even consider the bond as a small matter; it might be very sensitive for the other one. You know there is sometimes what we say as touchy or soft spot that may seem nothing to others but matters to us a lot.

With this misunderstanding, we never know that your friend will feel lonely even when she is in the mid of huge crowd or in between too many people. Her mind will be around the stupid friend and the stupid misunderstanding if there is love.

When there is perfect understanding, there is no chance of misunderstanding. But quite often misunderstanding comes in picture of our life. There is no relationship in the world without any expectations. A friend will expect not to lose the friendship till end) ; misunderstanding can crop up when the expectations are not met. Even small misunderstanding gets magnified and it hurts the other person to great extent. Someone whom we love can’t be given up so easily if there is no pain.

Don’t try not to communicate with each other and make the small crack to break the bridge of friendship. If there is lack of communication and Ego will join the play, then there is no end for the misunderstanding.

It’s only when each one thinks, it’s the other’s fault and are too egoistic to be the first to make up, and it does change people and relationships.

A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument.  A real friend knows that it’s not a friendship until after you’ve had a fight.

 A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face.

 Strengths of friendship are

I love you as you are. I don’t want you to change, let me change myself for you and it will be in both the hearts and this will give the confidence in both that this will go on forever.

I might not agree with all your words what you are saying, but I will love to hear all those words and I will die if I don’t hear it.

I am sorry doesn’t mean that I am mistaken, I value the friendship what I have with you is the meaning.

I miss you says that I can’t be a stranger to you and I need you in my life, we are inseparable and don’t try to make our relationship as strange.

I miss you when I talk to you. I miss you when I am seeing you. Think how I will miss you when I am not talking to you. Don’t make me to avoid you for any reason my dear friend is what I mean when I miss you.

Misunderstandings are common everywhere. But, when you are quick in your apologies and ready to forgive, it becomes a healthy relationship.

Recognize what is petty and what is not petty as to avoid conflicts between the two.

Moving on is very easy, what you leave behind, that makes it difficult. It is really tough to take the heavy heart of missing someone because of their attitude problem.

Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding. ~ Sri Chinmoy

It’s better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of your pride.

 A true friend will tell us when we are wrong. Hear the Bible, “Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful” 

Since there is nothing so well worth having as friends, never lose a chance to make them.

Please cherish all your friends for you never know when they will be gone.  Accept them as friends for they are your friends came in your life for a reason.  Never neglect them, their thoughts, their feelings for they will know you are not the only one to come till end.

 DON’T EVER TAKE FRIENDS FOR GRANTED, JUST BECAUSE THEY LOVE YOU.

There is a saying that when you die, if you’ve got five real friends, then you’ve had a great life. I know, I have got many and I do have a great life. Still my heart wishes to acquire some more…..

Feelings – Loneliness

Feelings – Love, Sick, Pain, It’s all about the Belief’s of our life….

I was struggling a lot to get a topic which can create sensation and I thought it’s high time for me to write something about the feelings of the people.  As an individual I love to be in mid of a group or at least with more than one person, but somehow I feel that I love loneliness more than being in a group  and I feel my productivity gets doubled when I am alone in the work environment and as well as when I am alone in my personal life.

I feel that I do many things when I am alone and I just kill my time when I mingle with people in both professional and personal life. I will feel that Loneliness was looking for a friend/partner and luckily it found me. I so blessed to be with you. As far as an individual if we consider loneliness is my best friend no no…  it’s my best partner of life. I grasp good friends very easily and we are now very tight friends.

Loneliness is a special enjoyment for those who know how to make them happy without the involvement of others or with the involvement of others. By making a third-party happier person, self gets happiest.

Loneliness is a state of mind wherein we prefer to be alone. It is not so easy to live alone in this society as well as the way world goes around but I love it. Unknowingly people around me occupy my space in the loneliness but I will be revolving around this world alone so as I can meet up with new people, new experiences… for those who want to learn, has to prefer to be alone so as they can learn so much from this world.

Loneliness is not anyhow desirable state. But it’s a result of our wish only. I don’t like one’s company that’s why I am alone. Here it is my wish. My friend doesn’t like me, my neighbor doesn’t likes me, my dad dishonors me, my mom has more affection towards sister all can create loneliness and all these can vanish with a smile from the other side of the life.

There is a lot of difference between a loner and a person living alone. Living alone is different from being lonely. For many, living alone is like  a transformation from being dependent to being independent. A loaner never gets a chance of opening up, expressing feelings or sharing thoughts.

When I go out and meet up with people, when I get the smile or the care from them, my loneliness goes out of my mind and that’s the common state for everyone. No one can escape from loneliness in life and at least we will be experiencing the loneliness in our life and if someone says I have not felt loneliness in my life then it is a lie only.

Sometimes we run from ourselves, we want to hide ourselves and we need loneliness. Solitude means more to me and it doesn’t mean that I want to be friendless or unsocial. Solitary comes, when I am fed up with the social environment and I want to be away from it for some time for some reason or may be am hurt with the social environment or personal environment or may be in professional environment.

Sitting Alone and Thinking about Others, I am not alone, I am with all your thoughts dear 🙂

I have seen many eyes around me with a peculiar look and inquisitive to know how I can live alone?  This article is mainly to explain those who were curious to know how I could live alone or lonely or how do I kill my loneliness. (Whether I kill loneliness or Loneliness kills me? Funny thought when I was writing this article)

Dear all, Thanks for your care and this care makes me to feel that I am not alone and I love to be self-contained (self-contained is a very big word but still that is what I will define about myself). It doesn’t mean that I am not unsocial and you all know me very well how I am and I am a self-sufficient person who can love my life as an individual, independent and am not an introvert. I am an extrovert, expressive, outgoing, and passionate about my friends, very loving towards my family, passionate about everything whatever I do. Above all I am great in socialize and cordial. I am pleasant to those who are pleasant and wild to wild it depends on the nature how you behave and I don’t give what I want, I give it back what I get. Loneliness taught me the self-contained life.

Loneliness is not living alone, loneliness is something living together and living in different directions and Insecurity causes loneliness. Isolation or separation from any relation is nothing but emptiness of love in our life. In any worst situation we need someone’s shoulder. Love will bring us back into life from any deep separation. Love wipes out insecurity from our daily life. If we don’t have any one to stop our tears only sorrow can feel vacancy of isolation in loneliness. There are some people who love to shed their valuable tears only when they are alone. All depends on people and I personally feel that loneliness makes people stronger than making them weaker.

Alone in the Rain

Very often people think that loneliness is the destination if you miss love… but as far as I am concerned, loneliness is a companion. If you feel comfortable, it is a companion, if it gives sorrow, then it is a disaster.

Loneliness has taught me to Love myself, while trying to fight loneliness, we are often convinced, that nobody cares and loves us anymore. This feeling leaves us in despair and hopelessness. It is an easy belief, that no one loves you, but this belief that makes you feel you lonely instead of feeling the loneliness or searching for a love from outside, learn to love yourself and this will teach more to love others as well.  The reality is, in the fast pace of life, missing the lovable ones or separation from the loved ones and maddening sprints of careers, you’ve reached a new point in your life to love yourself.  Focus on your achievements and strive for a better tomorrow, we need to know that we need love and loving ourselves is the best thing which a human can do. If you can’t love yourself, then you can’t love anyone. The self-realization and self-loving are the most important factors of life which will help us to grow in all the phases of the life.

I chose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no elimination or dismissal of my love.  I chose to love all in my loneliness and in my loneliness no one owns them, other than me. For me Loneliness is a companion. In loneliness, my love doubles and it provides more space for many to come in my life and to see many more to accommodate in life.

We wish someone to love us when we find loneliness. Undoubtedly that someone is a person whom we left alone or separated ourselves in between journey of life. Is there anyone in your life whom you left earlier? Do you want to take ‘U’ turn? Loneliness fills up love as well as the gap. It gives more comfort and contentment. It relieves from the pain and relaxes the soul. Loneliness doesn’t increase the grief but it consoles and reassure that there is something better and it cheers us up. People always prefer to be in lonely when there is deep stress or we feel that we are in lonely because we are in deep stress but it is the other way around, we are alone to overcome the deep stress and we know that only we have to come out of it. Only we can give peace to ourselves not by the others. Others can share or care or make fun of with our disappointment or guilt. Only the one who is in stress can think the way to come out of it.

As an individual I take only few minutes to come out of my grief and I have learned it to do it because my loneliness taught me how to overcome my problems. I am the decision makers of my life and I am the one who is going to get benefit or detriment out of my problems. Why should I share my grief to others when I can throw it out of me in two seconds or two minutes or two hours? Do I need someone to share my sorrow? Is there anyone who is living without any sorrow?  Yes we need people to share and sharing your emotions and secrets with people might not help you in overcoming the problems but it will also help you get closer to your friends.

I love all the people around me, beyond my limits, but is it required to be shown out? If they are close to me, they will come to know it and for others it makes no sense whether it is known or not. For those who know it, they will not feel that I am alone because they are always in my thoughts and deeds and without them I don’t move or live. Physically they are not around but mentally all of them are so closely knitted and tied up with me. Where the word loneliness is comes from?

Absence of people around us is not loneliness. It is our confusion to understand its meaning. I agree that having friends around helps me to wipe out my loneliness. But do we mean a friend? Then I am not a loner at all and I will not be also, god has blessed me so much that world is my home and I have friends all parts of the world.

Loneliness taught me to trust in two, one in god and the other one is self. I trust myself and I trust more in god that he will not let me to feel that I am alone or a loner. If at all I am alone it is on my own wish only. Destiny has given me more to be with many people and I chose to be a loner.

Sometimes, someone fills in that loneliness and occupies you totally without your knowledge.

Finally to close Loneliness is something not to be felt when we are in mid of people is what my inner feeling is. Because we are in the mechanical life, husband and wife running behind money, father and son don’t have time to share their feelings, mom and daughter are living like a stranger’s in a home. Houses are built of bricks and walls and but the relationships makes house to a sweet home. If the walls are built-in the heart and there is no space for the relationship and we live together as a stranger in the same building makes no sense of the relationship. Neither the relationship lives nor we live in the home.  An intimate relationship, we may know lots of people or have many friends but if your relationship with them is too superficial or if you never share your emotions with them then you will feel lonely. When there is lack of intimate relationship, Loneliness may be one of the hardest feelings that someone could experience. It is one of the worst feelings that could cause a suicide.

Don’t allow anyone to be superficial in your life or never share your immediate emotions to someone who is not related to you directly/personally. Keep a distance with all so as you don’t need to feel the loneliness forever, even when you are alone.

Continues….