Archive | December 2014

Lessons Learnt – Reason-Season-Lifetime

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be could be your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger and these people affect your life in some profound way.

“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”

Riya told me that you can write a book, novel or even as an epic about your lost love, but I will not consider that kind of person in my life for any reason. If there is little love, she would have called you or messaged you or mailed you as she will know that you will be feeling her absence.

I don’t know how a human can be like this? I replied her that she will think of me, if you feel so, then she would have tried to communicate with you. Don’t cheat yourself like this and it is more than 2 years and please accept that it doesn’t exist. Accept that someone played with your feelings. Accept that you are a victim, accept that you lost it, and accept that you are being cheated. Accept that it is not going to come back; Accept that days you think about her is waste of your time.

I don’t know, you are not sleeping or breathing without her thoughts, but if it is real love, she woudl have tried to communicate. even my friends asked, you are posting so many contents on her, do you think she will read all these? I said yes, she will, does she replied to any of it? I said no. Then how do you say that she is reading it.  That is faith. Almost everyone is fed-up with me with the way things are going in the last two years. I have to keep a full stop but I don’t know why? and How? why should I keep a full stop?

Secret of happiness is in admitting the fact that there are few things which can’t be repaired, few things lost can’t be regained, few enter life just to give a thought how the feeling will be, and few leave you with reasons & without reasons. Nothing is going to stop and life will go on. Their entry in your life to define the purpose of a life and they are not destined to travel with you or their presence in your life might lead to a downfall.

Forgive yourself and forgive her also so as you can find peace with those who are around you.

If someone is so arrogant, then their existence doesn’t make difference. I will not say you forget it, but at least don’t lose the real ones.

There are some people who come in our life to improve us in all the phases of life. We have to consider and hold them as lifetime people. Rest all comes as a reason or season.

Another friend shared this to me saying that let this be the last post about her.

Perhaps this poem will shed some light on things for you:

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Project – Consultants Vs Internal Team

This is one such pathetic experience what I am going to share now. In most of the Companies, either the business is driven by IT or the IT Projects are driven by the Business Process. I don’t know how to consider the below given experience as a business driven project or IT driven project.

This is one of the worst projects ever in my long career. I have seen many failed projects, but all those failures has valid reasons like scope was not frozen, due to time lines, due to changing factors in the requirement, due to the confusions from the consultants and adaptability from the customers to understand the functionalities that are available with the new system, Greek and Latin are the languages between the business and the consultants due to the lack of business knowledge for the customers.

I really don’t understand on what basis a project is being implemented in such a big organization. Is it to say that we have these products implemented in our organization or we use this product for our requirements? I really want to know 🙂

This is a scenario in which my role was a support consultant. Ultimately there was not role for me to play in this project. I was there to assist the vendor team with the current process (what is the current process, GOK – God only knows). With the support load, I was not able to be part of any of the discussions with the business or with the vendors and the way the project started its phase was really ridiculous.

Already they have a system or solution in place which is not 100% productive or in other words with lot of issues. Everyone knows the flows and flaws of the system, but they were not ready to clean up the mess which was already there in the system. Instead of cleaning that mess, they wanted to add some more features and functionalities which is being done out of the system.

The system which was used by them was like a broken boat, and we wanted the new system to be build based on the same broken boat. I don’t have a strong base and I wanted to build a huge ship on top of the broken boat.

As a support consultant, if you say that you are already in a sinking boat to the project manager or to the colleagues, beautiful answer from them was I know swimming, you don’t worry about it.

Hey man, I have to worry about it because I don’t know swimming and I can’t take the responsibility of my suicide because of you. It is not suicide and you are trying to kill me that was the thing going on in my mind.

Voice of the contractor doesn’t goes to the head of the department or the project manager or anyone who works for their own company. All my projects have to go on time, irrespective of whether it is being used by the business or not.

As usual for every success of the project the project manager will take the credit and for every failure, they will blame a scape goat.

I will start with the scape goat.

Scape Goat : Nevertheless to say

Sponsor of the project: I don’t know (whether it is from the business side or IT)

Steering committee: Only the same faces who involve discussing the issues and who has not taken any decisions for the same.

Project Manager: There was no such person who involved to be a mediator or to act like a professional bridge between the vendor and business.

Vendor : XXXX company

Vendor Consultant: A consultant to break her head for the project.

IT Team : Support team, whoever is free on that day, they will be called to attend the meetings and the information’s will not be shared with anybody else. If no one is free, no problem, we will handle it.

Testing Team: It is always said to be by business but in our case, we go with the vendor and the internal IT team, as they know the entire business in short span of time. Is it implementation or a part of add-in functionality like a new feature being introduced?

At times they will ask you to attend few meetings and later they will say not to be part of the project, because if you continue, you will not allow it to go live in the similar fashion, so as they can blame you for their failure.

Start Date:  The day they did the kick off

End Date: Business is unable to move ahead without this and the Scope is limited so ASAP (it was yesterday but today is fine),

Support: Support is not by the vendors who implemented the system, it has to be by the internal support team because the internal team has a rapport with the business users and was doing the support for the entire 250 or 300 users, who has twenty ear’s and 10 mouths to respond to all the queries from the business users after go live.

Height of this support is there should not be any escalation. (Who is Chariman’s Secretary, who is COO Secretary and who is what and who is normal user all this should be known to the bl**dy support consultant)

Go Live Date:  After go live one person has to go dead (They have already decided the scape goat and were waiting for the scape goat to come after the vacation)

Is it agony makes you to write, no it is my real feeling for that project and for the sake of the business.

After each day of my work, I sleep peacefully because of the satisfaction what I get, I am not here to entertain any foosl and I am here to serve for the organization goals is what needs to be in the minds of the project initiator and the driver of the project.

If someone feels that I am surviving in this organization by blaming someone for my failures, god is watching it and you have to answer for your mistakes.

Success is not measured by survivals, it is measured by the Effective Utilizations.

Scape Goats are not failures and everyone knows that it is blamed for others mistakes. I can say firmly that the projects handled in the above fashion will not yield any success either to the IT team or to the Business.

Jai ho with all your projects in the similar manner 🙂

2014 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 13,000 times in 2014. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 5 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

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My SAD – Miss you

This is a special thank you for the one whom I lost without knowing the reason…

Thank you for entering my life. Thank you for being Unique. Yet one more day thinking that you are not far away from me.

thinking-u

I used to tell you when I used to miss during the weekends or during our vacations that missing you makes me to feel more love for you. I don’t know may be because of that only you left me forever to love you more and more.

When we lose our loved one in the name of death, it is painful, but when we lose the dearth one without knowing the reason is more painful.

Many May come and Many may go, but the way I miss you can’t be measured by words. I keep myself so busy and I love two more like you, but still the pain in my heart is so much. I don’t think it can be repaired by anyone. I have one who will make me so happy with her presence and the other is like my Shakti, who will bring in all the powers even at the time of my deadly hours.

There is a saying that if someone hurts in the name of love, we need the same person as medicine.  I tried different medicines, but the pain of missing you is increasing rather than reducing. I tried to find my peace with a Sorry message, immediately, your sorry greeting card came into my life. I shared it in my Facebook wall and everyone started asking me to whom you are saying sorry, I was not able to tell them that this is a lovely sorry I got from you without knowing the reason for it.

There are some people who come for a reason and who leaves without any reason only. But your entry in my life has shown me a new phase in my life.

Life is as usual beautiful but if you are there in my life then it is the most beautiful place in this earth. As you have become my world, I am unable to search where you are as the place doesn’t matters, but the person matters.

will not return-stil waiting

Few of my friends asked me, do you still wish her and think about her?

Just because we don’t talk doesn’t mean that I hate her or I don’t care about her. I do care about her and love as I did before.

Do you think she reads your blog?  For sure, I know she will read it. If so, she would have responded to your messages, love or at least a word to know about you. It is not that she hates me, even if she hates me, she will read my blog and she will know that I am good, that is enough for her. As the way I say that I love her, she will also.

Sometimes, we forgive people simply because we still want them in our life, I want her in my life, if not as she was, at least as my dream daughter. I love her the most for making me to feel the most precious love of life. I have got all the happiness only because of that feeling what I got it through her. Only the doors of her heart is closed, but not the doors of my heart. I can’t knock it, but she has all the rights to break mine.

We don’t need communications through words. I am doing it to show it to her, even I wish to hear from her, but when I don’t get any news about her, god shows it to me in my dreams.

You will not believe also that I miss you more and more… now a days I dream a lot about you. What is a big thing in dreams? I am a day dreamer and I will not dream when I am asleep, but now you are coming in my dreams when I am in my deep sleep. It is new for me.

You know the way you came in my dream and told that I am going to be in Abu Dhabi. I was walking very fast in a Mall, suddenly I felt that I saw you and there was an eye contact with you, I came back to see is it you, yes it was you and there was drop of tears in your eyes and suddenly I got up from the sleep with tears in my eyes. It looks cinematic, but it is fact that I saw the tears in your eyes.

I don’t know whether this dream will become true or not, but I wish it to happen. I miss you the same way I was missing you in 2012 my dear SAD. Is it possible for you to make me SMILE once again ? Will this year 2015 bring that SMILE back in my Life?

Thank you All (2014)

We are almost in the last few days to end the year 2014 and eagerly waiting to welcome the year 2015.

It’s time for me to say “Thanks” for the wonderful people who crossed my life, whether a stranger who said thanks from his bottom of his heart for just giving him a change for 100 Dhms, or the security who has seen me while going for walking to say thank you for giving the confidence and smiles whom I have not seen before or after that conversation.

I have to say thanks to God for giving me the pleasure to touch someone’s life with my smiles. Whether I am tensed or fed up with life or frustrated with a friend or with my family, I try to get rid off my pain with music and with my smiles. sometimes yes with tears also, but those tears doesn’t take away the pain but it ignites more fire in me and it makes me to do the weirdest things.

I have to thank Face book because with a stupid status message my pain or the stress is getting relieved, irrespective of whether the concerned person sees it or not.

I have to thank Face book friends who are a great supporters, even though I have few who gives pain in FB, but I take it as a sweet pain and I have given the rights for you to do that with me :-).

I have to thank for the wonderful friends(entire team) that I got with the working environment who were feeling more than me for the humiliation or for the personal pains. Thank you guys for being there for me for the most important time of my life.

I have very good friends from Pakistan, who are there in my life even before coming to UAE. We are from two rivalry countries, but we never had any sort of rivalry kind of communications and both the teams felt that they so nice and sweet people and we know that we are being used as a force of threat for the political benefits.

From the working environment, I used to keep hi and hello relationship only, but I realized that what kind of support that I have got from you guys during my exit only. The way you all said that journey with you all is not an end, but a beginning. I really enjoyed, enjoying and will cherish those small tiny moments what we have shared in and out of the clients place. Thank you for the support and the Gully Tea times, I will cherish these moments forever.

 

Life is beautiful, nevertheless to say thanks to you, because you are going to be there to say this each and everyday irrespective of where you are or where I am or what I do. I have that much confidence in you that this will never break till we are alive.

I have to say special thanks to you for being with me at the worst time of my day and made me to feel relaxed, smile when I was not able to control my emotions. I have to thank you for those special words “Love you loads of dear daughter and I want to be always there for you whenever you need” which was like a rebirth for me on that particular moment. Those words were like an angel coming with handful of water while wandering in a desert. If I would have got a hug from you, you would have seen the emotional and sensitive side of me. I sincerely Thank GOD for introducing such a lovely and caring mother in Dubai.

Thank you my dear friend for being with me as always during the entire tenure of my working experience is really awesome and thanks for being dare enough to question your boss or to say that they did something wrong thing. When the entire team used to say that I have a special bond with you, I used to deny it and say that she is one like you only, but now it’s time for me to say “YES” it is.

I have to thank you for the sweet little innocent girl who doesn’t know what is happening or who cant even understand the pain what I was going through in the recent time,  was consoling me by asking me to go back to India or shall I arrange a visa for you in a different country…

I love it and want to say that this is the height of you innocence and want to say that I have the ability to stand on my own leg and to keep up my words as promised to you.

I love you sweet heart for the way you are the way we maintain our relationship so strongly but without any communications, I know that I miss you every now and then, but you don’t because you are always with me :). Thank you for not leaving me and for being with me.

This Special Thanks to the one whom I adore as my Dronacharya in all the aspect of my life (Professional and Personal), dedicating the year 2015 to Drive as per the aspirations what you feel that I could do in my life. Thank you for that Motivational words, ” I know you are good Rider, but I want you to DRIVE”, Only you have the privilege to say this and I will take it as Guidance for the changes what I am foreseeing in 2015. Thank you for being there for more than 9 years. Dronacharya – I am learning it.

I have not mentioned names of anyone here but I know for sure that you all know that whom I am referring to, that is the bondage what I have with you all.

Wishing you all a very Happy NEW YEAR 2015.

Tons of Love,

Tons of Happiness,

Tons of Joy,

Tons of Care

Tons of Health to enjoy the above all be with you.

Will continue the thanks for the year 2015 with new set of people, but you all will be there as part of my life forever.

Last Day – Experience about the company

How do you feel about your experience with this company ?
This is one of the most foolish question to be asked to a contractor when you are sending them out. This question is valid, when the C. Employee leaves on his/her own intention for some other projects. My instant answer to that super question was useless for me in my career. I was not wrong at all, because the internal experience what I got can be used only there, not in another company, unless and otherwise I work for the same industry.
Answer to your question, if it was in a team meeting
Wonderful Experience because of lovely colleagues, of course as usual  need to work with bunch of Jokers who neither knows what is a project delivery (Time duration only considered, risk analysis will never happen) nor a support activity.
Answer if I was leaving on my own
Working with this company was my pleasure and the learning curve was so high, I have not seen much of challenges or whatever I have come across were not new in this company but nevertheless it was quite good when the projects gets delivered.
After an awkward go live of a project, the way I have given the support, is one of the best what I could do in my career. I will not do such support anymore in my life. (That implementation was really pathetic), After 4 months of time, they can say that we had issues during the stabilization period and everything is fine now.
Bravo.. Kudoos but Don’t ever say that it there was no issues.
Answer if my employer would have asked this question
We are blessed to working with a better employer who can assign us in different projects. It will be great if you can concentrate more on projects and not the T&M style. I know the difficulties as a business but it makes lot of difference for both the company and the consultants as we will have some satisfaction that we are giving our time and effort for the sake of our own company not to your vendors.
Answer if one of your colleague would have asked the above question
Ideally you people have to answer for this question.
Answer if his boss would have asked the above question

There will not be any issues to your chair as long as you don’t hear from others. Don’t hear from anyone, just believe what they say are true. With this team, you don’t need to use your brain because they will make the things worst from bad.

Answer to a friend
I learned how all a management should not be with their external resources from this company. Don’t love your company, Don’t love your projects, Don’t consider your client as your employer.

Legend K Balachander

Is it a Grief or a tribute?

I have been updating the status in Facebook with reference to loss of the legendary Tamil Director K. Balachander. There are some of his movies which you can’t even imagine that it was taken 30 or 40 years back when the film industry was not really giving a thought about it.

He died at the age of 84 seen all the phases of his life, he has been a unique director with his directorial touch in both the big screens & small screens. So I don’t think I am grieving.

He is a Legend whether he is alive or not, they are called as Legend because there is no death for their creativities.

Almost he has handled all the controversial Subjects and most of his accomplishments are on the subjects on Women.

Some of the characters which I could ever imagine in movies are the characterization of Major Chandrakanth. It was his own Stage drama story and when he made it as a movie, the way of chosing the charcters was absolutely stunning. Today I admire Jayalalitha only because of that movie, even though I have so many of her movies as like favourites. The way her character was portrayed in the movie and the way of making it to reach to all the audience, only he can do it.

Whether it is with Jayalalitha or with the super star of Tamil film industry “Rajnikanth” the character what he played in Balachander movie Approval Ragangal might look very small, but the way Rajnikanth has seen the growth is amazing. Balachander found the fire in the eyes of Rajnikanth and he made him to act in couple of more movies along with the universal Hero, who was also introduced by Balachander with a small Character in ARANGETRAM.

I can say that Balachander has show the way for these two popular artists to grow with his movies itself. He gave the almost 5-6 movies together and they acted and tried to excel in their career.

Legend Nagesh with KB (As Maadhu in Ethir Neechal, Server Sundaram, Nee Kumizhi, Major Chandrakanth)

Siva Kumar – Agni Sakshi, Sindhu Bhairavi

I love KB for the way he chosen Siva Kumar for the movie Sindhu Bhairavi, only he will have that guts to chose him and to get it to that high level. To reach the audience from all the level’s, for sure he has done lot of homework and made it as a grand success.

 Actually I will prefer to talk about the heroines of Balachander because I love these characters and the way it is being characterized.

Sujatha – Aval Oru thodar kathai and Avargal.

Both the movies are the best movies for Sujatha, obviously Balachanders all movies are close to me and I cant;say that this movie is best of him. The songs in thiese movies will tell the stories and the way he used to get the songs for the movies, I feel that we don’t have anybody in the current trend to do the same.

Saritha –> Thaneer Thaneer, Achamillai Achamillai, Agni Sakshi & Kalyana Agathigal

The character played by Sarita in the above movies are awesome and astounding characters. When we talk about the movies which talk about the marriages between two religions, that was taken by him in Kalayan Agathigal as the subject for the love and how a person should act with it. Why should I give up my religion for the sake of the so called “Love”. Is it not the love for the other person?

Almost all his movies talks more about women and the problems being faced by women.

Thenmozhi of Achamillai Achamillai, if someone wants to learn to express or to act, I will say that they have to learn it by seeing the above three movies. I will call her as Expression queen, smiling beauty, Violent lady or whatsover we need, I have enjoyed in the above listed movies.

Agni SakshiKana Kaanum Kangal song from the movie will say the entire story and what else could the director ask from the artist to show the expressions.

Nandhini – Manathil Urudhi Vendum (Suhasini in Sindhu Bhairavi )

This is one character every women will cherish for their life, when they face the struggles. I don’t remember the year it was released or when I saw this, but this is really a true inspirational movie for me to survive so happily. Once again a movie which talks about the eldest daughter sufferings because of her family situations. One of the beautiful script in which Suhasini has done a remarkable role in it.

She would have lived as Nandhini in that.

Sindhu Bhairavi is another class role for Suhasini and she would have done it easily.

Sri Devi – Peacock of Tamilnadu, but a well matured character in the movie Moondru Mudichu with Kamal Hassan and Rajinikanth, and this trio group made great changes in the Tamil Industry.

Kalki –  A movie with Prakash Raj with three lead stars Geetha, Kalki Sruthi, Renuka as three different women characters playing with full of emotional melo drama.

47 Rojulu with Chiranjivee, if I remember correctly the herioine was Jayapradha and she has done the Anthuleni Katha, a Telugu remake of Aval Oru Thodar Kathai

Apart from the above the famous comedian Vivek was introduced by KB with a famous dialogue of “Innaikku Setha Nalaikku Paal”.

The villain veteran Actor Prakash Raj was introduced by KB. He will be the one director who would have introduced more than 100 and almost all of them are diamonds only.

May his soul rest in peace.